It has taken me two years to realize that my heart is stolen. All these past days, I’ve tried every trick I know to get it back. I’ve now given up. It is my fault. I had hidden my heart in a safe deposit vault in an island fortress and when she came along I displayed it to her! My dear old instinct had warned me. Yet, as we Hindus say-“ Vinaasha kale, veepiritha buddhi”!!!!!! I have no other explanation than that.
It is totally irrational and illogical. I’ve understood through this experience that one loses one’s head before one loses one’s heart![Or is it the other way round? I am confused!!] Of all the girls in all the world it had to be “her”???? It’s my oft repeated question to myself.
Let me tell you, love can sometimes really f**k your whole existence! It crushes you. It destroys everything you thought about yourself and the world around you.
I feel like a long lost civilization. I mean, I sometimes find some part of myself like some archeologist finding a severed hand of an idol in the ruins of Harrappa or Mohen-ja-daro!!!!
I am re-building myself now. Fortunately or unfortunately, my base is still my soul!!!
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